There is no prison sentence that would satisfy the father of Austin Metcalf.

For the first time since the verdict, Jeff Metcalf is speaking with CBS News Texas' J.D Miles about the sentence, the trial and forgiveness.

 A lie is temporary, but the truth lasts forever,  Jeff Metcalf said.

Austin Metcalf

Jeff Metcalf finally had a chance to read the words he's been writing in a notebook to address his son's killer.

Jeff Metcalf reflects on grief, peace and his victim impact statement

His victim impact statement included that people think that grief is sadness, but it's not. It's rage,  pure, unfiltered rage. You failed yourself. You failed your parents. You failed society. You don't belong in this community. 

Metcalf's victim impact statement came at the end of Karmelo Anthony's murder trial.

For months, Jeff Metcalf has been silenced by a gag order imposed by the judge. Now he's free to speak publicly and says he's free of something else as well.

 When I woke up this morning, it was a very different feeling,  Jeff Metcalf said.  When I woke up, I felt like 1 million pounds had been lifted off my shoulders and this morning was the first day I woke up with a feeling of peace, comfort. Tranquility that I haven't experienced in 14 months. And I felt. Awesome. 

Jeff Metcalf was in court every day of Anthony's trial. The 19-year-old now convicted murderer not only took his son's life, but he also did it right in front of Austin's twin brother, Hunter.

 What killed me was the body cam footage when I could hear Hunter screaming, 'Oh, God, oh, God. My brother, my twin,'  said Jeff Metcalf.  As a parent, you always want to protect your kids. And to hear my son and the fear in his voice. And I'm not there to fix it. 

He said sitting in the courtroom every day was challenging.

 I'll even say this: I had a little bit of sorrow because I'm human. And that poor boy is fixing to experience a life that I would not wish upon anyone,  said Jeff Metcalf.

Death threats, doxing and swatting added to family's pain

Jeff Metcalf says even today he's received death threats and has previously endured d

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